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Tuesday, November 01, 2005

how to make sushi

i've learned how to make california rolls (sushi) from my friend, a sushi chef. making california rolls is quite different from nomal sushi. very interesting to me.

  • cucumber thinly sliced
  • avocado thinly sliced
  • imitation crab with mayonnaise
  • tobiko
  • sushi rice
  • nori(seaweed)

cut cucumber, avocado and imitation crab into thin sliced sticks. lay seaweed sheet on a flat surface. gently spread a light layer of rice over entire sheet. turn the sheet over. at one inch from the edge of the seaweed sheet, add ingredients in layers to cover a one inch rectangle section of the sheet. starting from the edge closest to the filling, gently fold seaweed sheet over filling, lightly pressing to form a roll. continue rolling. afterwards, using makisu(3 and 8)pressing it a little tightly. slice roll into one inch pieces. put tobiko on the sushi rolls if you want.

Friday, October 07, 2005


October 4th, i went to watch movie"serenity" without knowing about "firefly". as soon as the movie started, i totally missed the story because, i guess, i was too sleepy to watch movie and one of actor's voice was little too low to understand for me. however, almost all audiences (except me) were laughing and craping their hands, seemed like they were having fun.

in the middle of story, after i understood what the story about little, it was kind a fun. there are laughing parts, brother and sister's love, and scary parts. i think the movie's balance is really good. i am thinking to watch the movie again when i am not sleepy and hope i can see in japanese.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says.

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I retuned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

Monday, September 12, 2005


we got blackout in LA around noon today. i was on the pretty high floor, so i took pictures with my phone, unfortunately, can't tell if it's blackout or not from the pics. i heard that all the signal stopped and there were heavy traffic around downtown. good thing is that i wasn't driving or taking any elevator.

whoever made an error for this blackout is such a trouble maker.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

apple ipod nano review.

on saturday, i went to pasadena apple store to see ipod nano which just came out. i really like the material ipod uses because it's smooth and very stylish. plus, i like the thin body with 4g storage and really quick access to photo gallary since ipod nano has no"hard drive". however, i thought the design needs to be more change. for examples, no need to put monitor horizontally and around scroll-wheel has big open space, designwise.

btw, "nano" means "it is" in japanese so that "ipod nano" means "it is ipod", which sounds funny to me.

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

google talk review

on 24th, google started providing an instant messaging service. i just tried it out with my sister. it's pretty fast opening and quick responding! and i like that little message window will minimizie like macos9 when i double click on the top of it.
unfortunately, i couldn't add my gmail account to adium and ichat using jabber. i am wondering if i am suppose to be able to.(addendum : i did!)

function that i really want them to add is file transfering and voice chatting with adium or ichat people since i am using them with macintosh. or they can make macintosh version of "google talk".

i love any service, google provides. for example, google map, gmail, and this blogger because not fancy, but light!

addendum : just successfully added the google account to adium. need to change the setting like this :

server : talk.google.com
port : 5222(5223)

Sunday, August 21, 2005

cyber story

The little boy asks his father - "Daddy, how was I born? "

Dad responds, "Ah, my son, I guess one day you will need to find out anyway! "Well, you see, your Mom and I first got together in a chat room on AOL. Then I set up a date via e-mail with your Mom and we met at a cyber-cafe. We sneaked into a secluded room, where your mother agreed to a download from my hard drive. As soon as I was ready to upload, we discovered that neither one of us had used a fire wall, and since it was too late to hit the delete button, nine months later a blessed little popup appeared and said, "You've got male!"

Thursday, August 18, 2005


how you find cool sites? ...well, google? someone's links? there are bunch of way, i know. but, today, i wanna introduce one way to find cool sites!

do you know a social bookmarks site "del.icio.us"? mmm.. what a nice url... social bookmarking is an activity performed over a computer network that allows users to save and categorize a personal collection of bookmarks and share them with others. (by wikipedia) the point is this :
"users can also take bookmarks saved by others and add them to their own collection, as well as to subscribe to the lists of others."

ok? got what u can do? this is the way :
1. post the same kinds of url which you wanna find. famous one might be better.
ex)if you wanna find cool a seach engine, post google.
2. go back to your own bookmarks. the bookmark, just added, may show how many people who have the same url, like this :

3. click on the number of people.
4. click on any id or tag name.
5. the person might have cool other sites. just steal them!!

that's it. i found some famous photostocks and a design database which are very useful.
btw, when i found only one person who has unexpected site, i feel like.. i wanna know bout the person! but unfortunately, i can't.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

musical baton(from:my sister)

musicbaton.JPG* total volume of music files on my computer:

6.97GB..doesn't mean stealing music, man!

* song playing right now:
i am not listening to any music right now. watching tv, sponge bob...

* the last cd i bought:
relax cd for $1 at target, lol.

* five songs(tunes) i listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
1.perfect / simple plan
2.jerk it out / caesars palace
3.yorokobini saku hana / aco
4.that's where you take me / britney spears
5.kuchibashini cherry / ego wrappin'
..that's what i-tune says.

* five people to whom i'm passing the baton:
is there somebody who wants to do it? :-)

charlie and the chocolate factory

august 12, i watched the movie, charlie and the chocolate factory. frankly, i didn't like the movie even thought i like tim burton and joenny depp. the reason why i didn't like so much is, i guess, i don't like movies which have dancing scenes(that indicates little scared face guys). also, i expected too much that the movie was gonna be cool if the director was tim burton and the joenny depp acted. oh, well.. too bad for me and i give thumb down, sorry!!

one funny thing is that i felt the sense of humor was quite similar to the recent japanese cartoon(not the famous one). i can't explain how the humors are different from where used to be, but i am wondering there is no wide difference between japanese humor and american one. if people whose mother language is english like this movie's humors.

btw, even thought i didn't like the movie, i love the joenny depp's michael jackson like acting. still i think he is a good actor.

Monday, August 15, 2005

3 times windows installing.

omg, who expects windows installing is so hard!!!

i am an apple person. i have ipod, powerbook and g3 blue and white, but i do have windows xp computer for testing a website(my job is making website) and doing my computer classes' homeworks. recently, the windows computer was taking forever to boot, so i decided to re-install everything. ...but i am getting the horrible messages :

we apologize for the inconvenience, but windows did not start successfully. a recent hardware or software change might have caused this. blah blah blah...
then, it won't boot anymore!!! jeez, i've reinstalled windows two times already because of the stupid massage. i gave up with updating windows since it happens after windows update.

well, there is a japanese idiom,"san do me(3times) no sho-jiki(honesty)", which means third time is lucky, so hopefully, i won't get the stupid problem anymore ..but i know that there is the other idiom"ni do(twice) arukoto ha san do(third time) aru.", it never rains but it pours.

thanks to : http://tinyslope.com/texts/windowsxp/

hello world,

hi, this is my first time to make an ENGLISH blog. i have japanese one, but i know not everyone can read it. i am wondering my english is good enough to make one. actually, i just quit keeping an english diary, i have kept for 2 or 3 years, because it was too short to practice english and totally pointless!! well, if somebody find this blog, then find weird english, tell me plz!! and be my friend. ;-)

btw, there is a japanese idiom "mikka bo-zu", which means person who can stick to nothing. (just "bo-zu" means little boy or bonze and "mikka" means 3days) i will try not to be like that...maybe.
- peace out -